Roller Coaster

The decision I made, the steps I took, the days I spent, I think that's all worth it.
Usually, I have to kill my brain to think about choosing any decisions. Yeah, I'm human, you're human, we're all human. Humans are always hard to choose something wisely, but this time I have my own rules and started my own games.

Let's get ahead of ourselves. Because for now, I barely can remember how I feel so far away from summer. Hatred, caraphernelia, all the wasted days, I wish it's all gone now. I burned the notes away, but not the melodies. But I think I've got enough for now. I got a half of the world in front of me, just only a matter of time I can take a whole world with me. Close enough!

Well then, I don't wanna make any promises this time. Just to see you close to me is enough. Happy November is happy. From now on, I got something to be written on my book, a new chapter (with the same old weather) has just begun. Don't wanna make this hard, just make it simple. Long way to go, and the ride has just started.

Heading Back to the Summer

She’s a sunflower in the summer
Laugh between a cry
She started the rain
She stopped the rain
Twisted mind

This is like heading back to the summer. But more slowly this time. With these notes that I've made, I’m standing here in this town. Convincing myself that you will know someday, that I'm here.
Pray.

Midnight Thought

It's okay to know that I'm not that good in the game that I was playing (or the one that I made?). But, yeah, things seems to be okay for now.

Yep, for now.

Honestly, I'm not quite good at this game, but I promise I won't make any pother with this.
Guess what? I think God has a master plan for me, a great plan. Think about it, I've been doing something hard to do, and I guess I'm on a right way now. Don't know, just guessing.
Busyness has just begun. Well, all the damned things that wasted my time has gone, I wonder if I could forget about it.

Never mind.

There Is

Ambience. They took me to the most comfortable midnight.
Dark and cloudy night.
Should we all wake up?

Gravity. They took me to the higher place.
A breeze in the autumn.
Snuggle down.

There is a world behind you that you haven't seen
A dream about another home on the clouds

No it's not about a movie scene

But can't you just imagine?
If we could have another story
Holding hands and just begin
A new chapter of your life

Penantian Musim

Pada kali pertama, yang dia inginkan hanyalah menyendiri. Ya, setelah kabar di musim panas dari merpati itu, perahu kecil tak lagi banyak bersuara. Tapi tidak sebelum ini, perahu kecil seringkali berkata bahwa dia hanya ingin mencoba untuk tidak terus bergantung pada angin yang membawanya. Ia kini tersudut di sisi sungai kecil, berpikir.

Apakabar kau, wahai angin?
Apakah kau bahagia?

Jelas saja, dia pasti bahagia, dia memiliki banyak awan yang mendorongnya untuk terus berpindah. Sementara perahu kecil itu hanya punya seekor merpati yang terus menemaninya walau ia tak banyak bicara. Konsep bahagia itu belum berubah, perahu kecil melihatnya sebagai, "angin akan bahagia walaupun perahu kecil tak berlayar". Tanpa mengetahui benar atau salah dari konsep bahagianya itu, perahu kecil terus berasumsi bahwa ia benar-benar masih membutuhkan angin untuk membawanya.

Dimana kau, wahai angin?
Sudahkah kau bahagia?

Lalu musim panas perlahan seperti berhenti. Harapan perahu kecil untuk bisa bertemu kembali dengan angin kini sirna sudah. Bukan menyerah, ia hanya tak mau terus berada di bawah bayangan pohon besar yang selama ini melindunginya dari apapun. Konsep bahagia itu kini berubah. "Aku pasti akan bahagia kalau aku bisa mendapatkan angin di musim yang lain". Lalu perahu kecil pun membentangkan layarnya dan sudah siap untuk melewati semuanya. Ya, semua suka dan duka yang menantinya.

Wahai angin.
Semoga kau bahagia.
Kini aku siap mengarungi luasnya lautan.
Aku siap melihat banyak awan di atas layarku.
Aku siap untuk mendengar kabar dari merpati bahwa kau bahagia.
Sampai jumpa di lain waktu.
Sampai jumpa di konsep lain dari bahagia.



Catatan musim panas.
Perahu kecil.